LayDee-Gore

i'd tell the world how much i hate myself i'd tell the world... how much i care if i could i would be that person who lefts people up but i seem to only left myself down i try to change but i only cause myself more pain would this world be better with out me? do i really matter... i like to think so but i as i see it-- im toxic i kill everything in my path i dont wanna be that person i wanna breed life i wanna create beauty and joy not khoas and death if i could find the words i'd explain this and hopefully change from this blackhole to a being of light and love hope joy

shoot me. do it...i want it die everyday the feeling grows you stand here with the power to end it i know im too weak to do it myself just do it.! pull the trigger put that bullet in my brain i want to end it i cant held this life you think you're big and bad- kill me im not scared we all die i just want to sooner then most so fuckin kill me slaughter me rip my insides out i need it i want it i deserve it fuck it

as i lay here-- naked on the floor i realize these bodies, trip. a soul, a heart, a spirit, a brain. it restricts beings--consuming essences we fail to escape the world crushes us--pressures us to be who our "body" says we are... chained here by this vessel as we breathe...as we walk... cuffed to this physical world where people only see... people only see... and they believe--no more. minds dont soar minds dont grow you're a body only a body meant to be toyed with tossed aside by everyone you born those tears that fall from your eye to your cheek meaningless now. you are only a body-- in an endless sea of such ...no